3...2...1 now fall in my arms now

The * who can't be moved.
How would you feel if your mom called herself a failure for raising you to be so selfish &self-centered.
&then the nxt day, she started being normal to you as if last night didn't happen.
How should I be feeling now...

Labels: How can I move on when I'm still in love with you

LIFE W/O TRAININGS
I feel like a total fat bitch. I haven't been training since I last sprained my ankle which was 2 sats ago, although I have been attending gym trainings but still, my intake > outake = F.A.T
I can't w8 to go back for training nxt week, I'm missing out way too much &I bet I can't run as well as the rest of the girls :/ Hopefully my ankle doesn't fail me.
&finally, I have time for books ! Okay, not exactly... I've made time for books (putting aside geog.f.graphy). I'm done w/ Cecelia Ahern's A Place Called Here &I shall soon start on Nicholas Spark's The Wedding &Message in a Bottle.
(the herbs for my ankle stink)
Mom has been really nice, accompanying me to docs/sinsehs &all. She really wants my ankle to recover so that I will enjoy myself in J but I still don't see the attractiveness .____.
Jy bought a olympus camera for 150b! It's a rather good buy &Sitex looks seducing w/o the massive crowd. I shall go back to look for a promising mp3 player or I'll w8 till I'm in J or get back for Comex.
Gym tmr w/ the lovable juniors (: can't w8!

eye candy for the day (:

Labels: fat bitch

Meltz heart.
Lin JJ's party III w/ 3guys that totally think they sing well but they don't. Kudos to Er &his aunt for the free tix, &Colin for calling me along. Lin JJ is A-mazing &totally melts hearts (even though he's not that gdlooking), but still... (MY PLAYLIST!!!)
&yay we finally have double-digit no. of pple on the team! The juniors are so lovable &esp Sarah, she's sooooooo CUTE !!! haha her feet are like size 4 ! They're like half my size gosh
Feeling horribly depressed right now cos it's been a week &my ankle is not recovering fast as I wish it is. It's still quite swollen &the therapist says if the swell doesn't go down in 2-3d time, I might have to go for an xray to see if I have a hairline fracture. This is so scary &I don't want that to happen cos if it does, I might have to go for an operation &I won't get to train nor go to japan ): I really miss training, &for the first time in my life, I want to run ):
Oh yes, &last fri I saw this cyclist get knocked down by a car but it wasn't a v bad accident cos the car wasn't speeding or what but still I think the cyclist suffered some injury on his head. So scary...
&I just heard that yk &chantelle got into a rather serious accident.
What's w/ me &accidents lately...
&lastly, I saw my ec today :D + I need to stop being so anal.
Okay, off to soak my ankle in hot water!
I'm starting to miss you all over again.

Labels: why is this happening

I AM FUCKING PISSED
AT HER.
AT THE AUNTY KARAOKE GOING ON DOWNSTAIRS DISRUPTING THE PEACE OF THE NIGHT.
AT THE AUNTIES SINGING THEIR SONGS BUT THEIR VOICES FUCKING CMI.
AT THE FACT THAT I'M FUCKING BROKE COS I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SAVE MONEY &I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M GNA SURVIVE FOR THE REST OF THE WEEK.
AT THE ITCH ALL OVER MY BOD ESP MY ASS &MY HIPS.
AT MY ANKLE COS IT'S STILL FUCKING SWOLLEN &STILL FUCKING HURTS.
AT THE WHATEVER MAN BROTHERS (can't rmb their names suddenly) FOR GOING BANKRUPT &CREATING THE FUCKING RECESSION.
AT MY MENSES FOR NOT ENDING.
AT THE KARAOKE FOR STILL NOT ENDING.
AT EVERYTHING.

Labels: damn eff-ed up

NEW ASIAN EYE CANDY!

Labels: H.A.W.T

I'll don't think I'll ever find someone like you again.

Lucky shit I just took on a job that pays 12bucks/hr but it's only a one-day thing &I'll only be working 2shifts, 12p-2p & 6p-8p which means 48bucks/day = can buy a backpack or buy that green sweater at topman awesome! But apparently, I don't know what the job scope is so hopefully it's just like what Carmen told me, giving out newsletters! /keep my fingers crossed
Yes! Last pw rehearsal tmr &it's the big thing on fri followed by the first ball training of the week cos training was cancelled ytd due to heavy rain &lightning risk &then it's I&R where I have to kill more brain cells to think of new limitations &strengths that were not mentioned in the wr nor the presentation SUCKS
Hospital appointment this morning at 8:40a where the doc gave me hormone-freaking-pills cos she said there's something wrong w/ my womb or somesort that may eventually lead to womb cancer yikes! oh oh &one interesting fact, all this time I thought I wouldn't be able to get pregnant but turns out, a woman can get pregnant even when her menses doesn't come ! But that's not the pt, pt is the pills are going to make me gain weight + have occasional hot flush + ... &even though everyone keeps telling me the amt of exercise I do each week is enough to work away the excess weight but still I don't want to put on somemore weight ): I guess I'll just have to eat lesser (think on the bright side I get to save money for shopping as well ! )

Labels: cool shit

Brick walls are there to show how much we really want something.

Went to suntec's pizza hut w/ VICTANLIENEN &DOUBLECHIN-KAIXIN cos I had to satisfy my craving for pizza hut I had since ytd. But pizza hut suntec's service suckssssssss. Okay, so does it's delivery service. Let's talk about ytd first. I called 62-35-35-35 over 30times from 5:45p to 6:20p &out of these 30 times, I couldn't get through like 20times &the other 10, they put me on hold for 5-freaking-minutes so in the end I didn't get to try the new 2 for 19.9bucks viva pizzas &had to settle for canadian pizza ): okay &for today, there's this thing that they put on their menu that says LunchExpress, we serve within 15min or something like that, but we w8ed so so so long before our order came &&they forgot Vic's pepsi + + when we asked for the bill, they took eons to give it to us I so felt like not paying for service charge zzz anw another interesting thing that happened ytd as well, we ordered kfc at 5:30p so the latest it should take is 6:30 but at 7:15 our order still wasn't here so my typical mom called to enquire about our order &the manager called back to say that our delivery man got into an accident haha so coincidental or maybe it was just some lame excuse they came up w/. okay so the photo on top, kx &I tried the shirts on at topman no actually topshop cos they didn't allow us into the topman dressing room. &vic was suppose to stick her head in but she didn't ): anw there are actually 2 more photos but due to kx's poor photography skills, we appeared w/ double chins!!!!!!!! I swear I don't have double chin !!! I don't know about her though hahahahaahhahaha but still ... &&I just played a damn exciting game called delta force land warrior which I think I'm not bad in considering the fact that I was the only good man in the game &I got to the last stage then I died ): but I don't know why I can't play counterstrike though I bet kx doesn't believe I am that good at df I'll show you ! wakakakaka

Labels: the last lecture