I had an outing today w/ June, Zhanhong &Colin(: it has been ages since the four of us hung out tgr &guess what, I watched Kungfu panda (again). But it felt like I was watching a movie that I've never watched before (other than the fact I spoilt the movie here &there), probably because of the company &I was laughing at things that I didn't notice before. We had sakae ala-carte (spamming edamame peas) after that &spent alot of time laughing at June &her antics. Although it wasn't exactly well planned cause we didn't know where to go, I totally enjoyed myself:D
I knew that I was going to ruin your mood if I talked about the dsa stuff just now &I'm sorry but I had no choice.
I'm highly disappointed because I told you that vj would definitely dsa you but things turned out otherwise. I convinced you (forcefully) to choose vjc but in the end I nearly cost you hci. You rejected hci despite its incentives yet you have to wait for vj to accept you which is totally unfair because you definitely don't deserve such treatment. I'm disappointed in myself for not being able to convince tyh to bring you in &I'm disappointed in him for only seeing your past but not your change, believing hearsay w/o actually talking to you &insisting on his own point. I used to complain about you giving false hopes ¬ keeping promises but it looks like I'm the one doing it now &it totally feels like shit. I don't know how things turned out this way but I'll keep fighting for you &if eventually you decided to go to hci (but I'll be super depressed too), I'll respect your choice cause it's vj that has let you down. But for now, I'm gna pray super duper extremely hard &go all out to prove that you are worthy of the dsa spot &Ms Tan's, Coach's &everyone else's efforts to convince tyh to bring you in.
Labels: A warrior never gives up fighting.
